I wrote this post to ease the pain in my heart. I am finding something amiss for the last few days. This happens once in a while when I get too occupied with my work and household responsibilities.
Today I am happy because couple of months back I found the courage to follow my heart. I quit my luxurious corporate job and I now work for a startup that supports small farmers. As I write this post, I am sitting in a canteen of a tribal development center, in the interiors of Gujarat. The sun has set and I only hear some folk music in the background. Whenever I travel to places away from home I connect to my mind and soul. I ask them if they are happy. But today my soul said that it has missed that one thing I have always loved – sharing my experiences through my blog. Few months back when I had not quit my job, I used to read a lot and blog. Then, I wasn’t too busy but I was doing things that keep my soul healthy. Now I am busy, enjoying my work but my soul is a little unwell. My soul loves me – taking a day off, going for a walk by myself, listening to music while I read or just sit idle and gaze at trees. This is “my thing”. Everyone has their “own thing” that helps them cleanse emotionally. But many a times we forget about them. My room at the village hostel has a window that overlooks the forest. I looked out of it this evening and tried to dig my pain. The solution wasn’t hard, I just had to pick my laptop and write, share my untold thoughts and stories.
Have you been missing an old hobby? If the answer is yes and the reason is that you are too busy to pursue it, look out of your window and give it another tough thought. Maybe you are just in love with the idea of being busy all the time. Maybe you do not know how to draw happiness from things you love and instead are busy living up to someone else’s expectation. Whatever is the reason, you do not want to look into the mirror one day, see your graying hair and regret about things you could not do in your life that you truly yearn for. So every now and then peek out your window, do what your soul has missed and liven it up again.